previously,
i lost majed and i lost my happiness. i tried to smile, i tried to pretend that i'm fine but i couldn't, i end up crying every day. its summer w i should be having the greatest time of my life, but i'm not. i set everyday on the beach thinking of him when i shouldn't... i gave mama my answer about faisal.
the first time mama asked me about my opinion about getting married i told her i don't want to. and after one and a half month i told her the same. she said its my life w law i don't want him its fine w i'm still young w mn hatha el 7ake...
my whole summer was about majed. only majed.
one of the mornings dana came to me.
dana: 9a7aite?
me: eewa
dana: we're going to spend the weekend 3end turki
me: meen el we?
dana: me w da7oom w haifa w salma w 7amoode w alya we're going to stay 3nd turki for couple of day
turki is my brother w ydres in L.A
me: umm ok have fun
dana: ok liin i'm not asking you, you're coming with us
me: ok whatever
dana: why you're doing this to yourself? 3ashan waa7d ma yestahel?
me: ...
dana: you know you're killing yourself ketha?
me: i'm already dead
dana: don't say that
me: why? law i didn't 7yrja3 majed?
dana: i tried to know aish elle 9aar between you two but you don't want to talk about it
me: 5ala9
dana: la2 you'll talk now
me: dana i don't know what happened law i knew kaan ketha 7aale now?
dana: ...
me: he left without even telling me what do you want me to say? how do you want me to be?
dana: ...
me: we were perfect wallah and i'm dying here not to know what happened
dana: come with us '3ayre jaw bs jaalsa hena all alone daaym its not fair for you
me: i don't want to
dana: lina, what your doing to yourself is not going to bring him back
me: ...
dana: so live your life, tell me if you change your mind
me: ...
i sat there thinking about him more and more and i actually got sick of it, i'm here thinking of him w he didn't even bother himself asking about me. i wanted to at least smile again like i used to so i called my brother.
turki: aloo
me: hi
turki: liiiiin hala hala
me: i miss you
turki: i just saw you two days ago
me: ok i don't miss you
turki: i miss you more lil sis *giggled*
i giggled.
turki: ha you're coming to spend the weekend 3nde
me: umm
turki: you sound different feek shy?
my relationship with my brother is different of any other relationship between two siblings, i tell him everything i never hide anything from him. i talk about hot guys, his friends 3aade lol bs i never told him that i'm with some guy and i don't think i can tell him something like that.
me: i'm fine bs i really missed you
turki: yalla then come to me
me: ok *giggled*
we talked b3dain he hanged up 3ashan his friends came over w i went to dana to tell her that i'm going with them. she jumped out the sofa and hugged me for no reason lol. i love her :p
we went to our room packed our stuff. my brother lives in an apartment in beverly hills. lama we drove off to my brother it was 5:00 pm, we should be there in 25 minutes bs we got stuck in the traffic :)
lama we arrived we stayed in the apartment. we wanted to go shopping bs everything ysaker at 6:00 pm so we went to some restaurant instead.
its just perfect for shopping, i do need some shopping to have some fun with the girls.
me and the girls went to rodeo drive, we shopped the whole morning then we went back to my brother and my cousins. my brother wanted to do some shopping as well, so he asked me to go with him.
we were walking lama he asked me about faisal.
turki: kaif el jaam3a?
me: el 7mdelellah enta kaif your master?
turki: its not easy
me: allah ywafegek
turki: al7een you didn't tell
me: what?
turki: aish feek mt'3ayera?
me: i'm not
turki: you're my sister a3rf kaif kente
me: kaif?
turki: you used to laugh the whole time bs i didn't see that mn lama you came
me: you're wrong
turki: you used to be smiling without a reason kaman
me: ...
turki: what wrong? 3ashan elle metgadem lk?
me: ...
turki: etha because of that you don't have to think liin
me: we already answered them
turki: oh jd?
me: yea mama called them
turki: wafagte?
me: la2
turki: good for you taw 9'3eera ente
i smiled.
turki: 6ayb aish kaman m'9aaygk?
me: nothing turki
turki: i'm your brother you can tell me anything you want
i nodded.
i tried to act as normal as i could in front of him 3ashan ma y7s w i think i acted pretty good. i helped him to pick some shirts and stuff w he also bought me things to. i enjoyed my afternoon with him. he wanted to eat something so we went to some cafe w lama we sat on our table i told turki i'm going to wash my hand w i went to the restroom. few minutes later i turned back to our table w i saw him talking to some guy. he was talking to the guy w at the same time he was looking, smiling at me, i didn't want to look stupid standing all alone be3eed so i went to our table.
and guess who's the guy?
turki: ha liin
i smiled and i looked down to my phone like if someone was talking to me lol.
salman: ok ajal ana a5leek al7een bs mer 3laina el yoom
turki: eewa enshallah b7aawl bs wallah my cousins w my sisters 3nde so i'll see law i can
salman: oh 3ethrk m3aak ajal yalla a5leekm
he smiled at me w i smiled back w i looked away 3ala6ool.
they said bye to each other.
turki: guess who's that?
me: umm meen?
turki: faisal's cousin
me: uha w kaif te3rfa?
turki: m3e fe el jaam3a
me: oh
what a small world.
turki got his snack lol w i got my coffee, we were talking about random stuff w he told me that his girlfriend is here law i want to meet her lol. they've been together for five years now. we talk about everything we don't hide anything from each other at all as you see bs i just felt awkward this time lama he talked about her.
dana called me to tell me that we're going to the cinema tonight so we went back to the apartment to get some rest. we actually didn't with all the laugh lol, my brother was trying his new clothes, he start making me laugh by doing his own fashion show. i actually laughed for real, it was a lot of fun with him. i missed him being around the whole time...
he finished his fashion show lol o i went to my room to change my clothes.
lama we came to california i changed my sim card w i put my saudi sim card in another phone incase law majed called or texted me and i checked on my phone awal ma i got to the room w i saw a text message. my heart start pumping. could it be from him?
i unlocked my phone and i stared at the icon for about 2 minutes then i opened my inbox.
"hi lina kaifk? 3aash meen shaafk :p. umm anyway i just wanna say hi. have fun in L.A. sorry i disturbed you. -Salman"
i was actually surprised.
i looked into his message for a couple of minutes after that dana came.
dana: you're here
me: umm yea rja3na lama you texted me
dana: wain r7to?
me: umm we shopped
dana: oh bs?
me: umm guess who i saw today?
dana: who?
me: salman
dana: salman meen?
me: umm salman al-...
dana: your kidding
me: 9aa7b turki kaman
dana: oh
me: he texted me
dana: kaif y3rf your US phone number?
me: no stupid 3ala my saudi number
dana: msha'3elta?
me: umm yea
dana: ya allah 6ayb what did he say?
me: umm kaifk w have fun in L.A
dana: rdaite?
me: la2
dana: rde 6ayb
me: no
dana: why?
me: i don't want to
dana: ok 3ala raa7tk yalla change your clothes
me: ok
we changed our clothes and we were ready to go. lama i was watching the movie i decided to reply on salman's message and yea, i wasn't thinking.
i replied:
"hi la its ok. i'm good."
few minutes later he answered me...
the first time mama asked me about my opinion about getting married i told her i don't want to. and after one and a half month i told her the same. she said its my life w law i don't want him its fine w i'm still young w mn hatha el 7ake...
my whole summer was about majed. only majed.
one of the mornings dana came to me.
dana: 9a7aite?
me: eewa
dana: we're going to spend the weekend 3end turki
me: meen el we?
dana: me w da7oom w haifa w salma w 7amoode w alya we're going to stay 3nd turki for couple of day
turki is my brother w ydres in L.A
me: umm ok have fun
dana: ok liin i'm not asking you, you're coming with us
me: ok whatever
dana: why you're doing this to yourself? 3ashan waa7d ma yestahel?
me: ...
dana: you know you're killing yourself ketha?
me: i'm already dead
dana: don't say that
me: why? law i didn't 7yrja3 majed?
dana: i tried to know aish elle 9aar between you two but you don't want to talk about it
me: 5ala9
dana: la2 you'll talk now
me: dana i don't know what happened law i knew kaan ketha 7aale now?
dana: ...
me: he left without even telling me what do you want me to say? how do you want me to be?
dana: ...
me: we were perfect wallah and i'm dying here not to know what happened
dana: come with us '3ayre jaw bs jaalsa hena all alone daaym its not fair for you
me: i don't want to
dana: lina, what your doing to yourself is not going to bring him back
me: ...
dana: so live your life, tell me if you change your mind
me: ...
i sat there thinking about him more and more and i actually got sick of it, i'm here thinking of him w he didn't even bother himself asking about me. i wanted to at least smile again like i used to so i called my brother.
turki: aloo
me: hi
turki: liiiiin hala hala
me: i miss you
turki: i just saw you two days ago
me: ok i don't miss you
turki: i miss you more lil sis *giggled*
i giggled.
turki: ha you're coming to spend the weekend 3nde
me: umm
turki: you sound different feek shy?
my relationship with my brother is different of any other relationship between two siblings, i tell him everything i never hide anything from him. i talk about hot guys, his friends 3aade lol bs i never told him that i'm with some guy and i don't think i can tell him something like that.
me: i'm fine bs i really missed you
turki: yalla then come to me
me: ok *giggled*
we talked b3dain he hanged up 3ashan his friends came over w i went to dana to tell her that i'm going with them. she jumped out the sofa and hugged me for no reason lol. i love her :p
we went to our room packed our stuff. my brother lives in an apartment in beverly hills. lama we drove off to my brother it was 5:00 pm, we should be there in 25 minutes bs we got stuck in the traffic :)
lama we arrived we stayed in the apartment. we wanted to go shopping bs everything ysaker at 6:00 pm so we went to some restaurant instead.
its just perfect for shopping, i do need some shopping to have some fun with the girls.
me and the girls went to rodeo drive, we shopped the whole morning then we went back to my brother and my cousins. my brother wanted to do some shopping as well, so he asked me to go with him.
we were walking lama he asked me about faisal.
turki: kaif el jaam3a?
me: el 7mdelellah enta kaif your master?
turki: its not easy
me: allah ywafegek
turki: al7een you didn't tell
me: what?
turki: aish feek mt'3ayera?
me: i'm not
turki: you're my sister a3rf kaif kente
me: kaif?
turki: you used to laugh the whole time bs i didn't see that mn lama you came
me: you're wrong
turki: you used to be smiling without a reason kaman
me: ...
turki: what wrong? 3ashan elle metgadem lk?
me: ...
turki: etha because of that you don't have to think liin
me: we already answered them
turki: oh jd?
me: yea mama called them
turki: wafagte?
me: la2
turki: good for you taw 9'3eera ente
i smiled.
turki: 6ayb aish kaman m'9aaygk?
me: nothing turki
turki: i'm your brother you can tell me anything you want
i nodded.
i tried to act as normal as i could in front of him 3ashan ma y7s w i think i acted pretty good. i helped him to pick some shirts and stuff w he also bought me things to. i enjoyed my afternoon with him. he wanted to eat something so we went to some cafe w lama we sat on our table i told turki i'm going to wash my hand w i went to the restroom. few minutes later i turned back to our table w i saw him talking to some guy. he was talking to the guy w at the same time he was looking, smiling at me, i didn't want to look stupid standing all alone be3eed so i went to our table.
and guess who's the guy?
its salman. faisal's cousin.
turki: ha liin
i smiled and i looked down to my phone like if someone was talking to me lol.
salman: ok ajal ana a5leek al7een bs mer 3laina el yoom
turki: eewa enshallah b7aawl bs wallah my cousins w my sisters 3nde so i'll see law i can
salman: oh 3ethrk m3aak ajal yalla a5leekm
he smiled at me w i smiled back w i looked away 3ala6ool.
they said bye to each other.
turki: guess who's that?
me: umm meen?
turki: faisal's cousin
me: uha w kaif te3rfa?
turki: m3e fe el jaam3a
me: oh
what a small world.
turki got his snack lol w i got my coffee, we were talking about random stuff w he told me that his girlfriend is here law i want to meet her lol. they've been together for five years now. we talk about everything we don't hide anything from each other at all as you see bs i just felt awkward this time lama he talked about her.
dana called me to tell me that we're going to the cinema tonight so we went back to the apartment to get some rest. we actually didn't with all the laugh lol, my brother was trying his new clothes, he start making me laugh by doing his own fashion show. i actually laughed for real, it was a lot of fun with him. i missed him being around the whole time...
he finished his fashion show lol o i went to my room to change my clothes.
lama we came to california i changed my sim card w i put my saudi sim card in another phone incase law majed called or texted me and i checked on my phone awal ma i got to the room w i saw a text message. my heart start pumping. could it be from him?
i unlocked my phone and i stared at the icon for about 2 minutes then i opened my inbox.
"hi lina kaifk? 3aash meen shaafk :p. umm anyway i just wanna say hi. have fun in L.A. sorry i disturbed you. -Salman"
i was actually surprised.
i looked into his message for a couple of minutes after that dana came.
dana: you're here
me: umm yea rja3na lama you texted me
dana: wain r7to?
me: umm we shopped
dana: oh bs?
me: umm guess who i saw today?
dana: who?
me: salman
dana: salman meen?
me: umm salman al-...
dana: your kidding
me: 9aa7b turki kaman
dana: oh
me: he texted me
dana: kaif y3rf your US phone number?
me: no stupid 3ala my saudi number
dana: msha'3elta?
me: umm yea
dana: ya allah 6ayb what did he say?
me: umm kaifk w have fun in L.A
dana: rdaite?
me: la2
dana: rde 6ayb
me: no
dana: why?
me: i don't want to
dana: ok 3ala raa7tk yalla change your clothes
me: ok
we changed our clothes and we were ready to go. lama i was watching the movie i decided to reply on salman's message and yea, i wasn't thinking.
i replied:
"hi la its ok. i'm good."
few minutes later he answered me...
where's the new ch. :( !!
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